It sucks that you’re going to grow up.
I‘m not being selfish here. I‘m really not. It has nothing to do with me. I’m not collecting your booties and scrapbooking and feeling nostalgia for a time I’ll never have back. You’re going to grow up. I’ve accepted that. I’ve accepted that you’re gonna love me for the next eight to ten years, and you’re gonna hate me for about eight to ten years after that.
I’ve realized and accepted this. It’s reality. It has nothing to do with me. It has everything to do with what awaits you when you do grow up.
Let’s face facts. Life doesn’t get any better. In fact, it just gets steadily worse until there is no life left at all. It starts with learning to crawl. And it seems like the most difficult thing in the universe to learn. But when you’re older, you’ll kill to have such single-minded goals.
And I’m so sorry that you have to go through that.
You had an accident yesterday while I wasn’t around. You got hurt when I wasn’t even in the same city as you. It’s not the first injury. It’s not the first trauma of your young life. It certainly won’t be the last. But every one is important. Every single injury is one more shred of innocence taken away.
And my job is to help you. To make things seem a little easier than they really are. Even when I’m struggling to keep my head above the water.
I really wish you didn’t have to grow up.
Awwww *sniff sniff* why must you do this when I'm half asleep and very emotional?
ReplyDeleteIt true, I hate seeing little clothes and toys that my girls haven't fit into or played with for at least 10 years now!
I hope he's ok... and might I add, How freaking adorable is he!!? Such a cutie!
p.s. welcome back!
*Bon Don*
like i said the next time i see you, id better have a picture of sebastian for my fridge. hes the only baby not up there!
ReplyDeleteand honey i wish you wouldnt feel bad about the accident. it was an accident (even if it was one that would never happen under your watch) and when he gets older he wont remember. i showed you my hand scar, i don't remember it at all.
youre a great dad and i promise you, its all going to work out in the end.
xoxox
Awe he is Gorgeous!!! I have a 12 year old; it's so hard to hear when they get hurt especially when you as the parent are not around at the time. He won't remember the accident but he will remember how much you always care, worry and love him.
ReplyDeleteI tell my son I am not going to feed him anymore so he will stop growing. He used to tell me "I will always hold your hand mommy" now he says "MOM I was 4 & 5 when I said that" ;-)
I hope your son is OK now!